dear baby z: my love for you is so big, i can't even describe the feeling

Dear Baby Z,

Where do I even start?  Not only am I in complete denial that my baby girl is growing up before my very eyes but last week, at 17 months, you gained the long awaited confidence to let go of the sofa {or chair or table} and try to walk towards another object - all by yourself!  You're also toying with the idea of standing by yourself without holding onto anything and you love using your big brother's old walker!  Just watching you discover your balance and newfound freedom is so entertaining!

In addition to your exciting milestone, I love that your personality is blossoming every single day.  I see a lot of your siblings in you:  from your sense of humour in being able to find every single situation funny, to your patience in trying to figure things out {this trait is one you definitely share with your brother}.  You also have a calm air around you {which your brother used to have and then he turned two...} and your smile is just so darn infectious.  I love that you fling yourself onto your back as soon as I sit you down on our bed and that you'll try anything that's edible {or not edible - we need to work on that one}.

dear baby z: where did time go?

Dear Baby Z,

It's like it happened all of a sudden.  One day you were a baby - babbling, crawling {or shuffling} and needing assistance in all aspects of your life - and then the next, you were an actual person - talking, pulling yourself up to a standing position and cruising along furniture, and climbing up on benches where you now prefer to eat your meals {no more high chairs for you!}.

Okay, you were always an actual person but all these things happened within a week and it made me miss my little baby!  But it also made me extremely proud that my baby was growing up.

No more high chairs!

dear baby z: happy nine months!

I meant to post this two days ago, on February 22nd, but motherhood got the best of me.  Here's a love letter to my beautiful baby girl...


Dear Baby Z,

Today you're nine months old!  I'm sorry my letters to you have been so infrequent but our daily lives have been extremely busy that by the time you and your brother are in bed, I'm either passed out too or on the couch curled up with a full glass of wine.  You'll understand when you're older!

dear baby z: 4 months & growing! #loveletters

Dear Baby Z,

You're just over four months old now and, unfortunately, just caught your first cold.  It's been a few days of stuffy, runny noses but overall you've been coping really good.  Instead of sleeping through the night, you'll wake up once or twice for a quick feed and then you fall right back into a deep slumber.  I don't mind at all - it's probably because you're feeling under the weather.

Sleeping Beauty

We've had a busy month!  Your brother started preschool in September so we've been busy shuttling him back and forth as well as going to his gymnastics, soccer and floor hockey classes.  You're pretty much a pro at all of this and take everything in stride.  A couple days ago we watched your brother at his gymnastics class for an hour and you spent a good 40 minutes in my lap, happily sucking on your hands and "talking" away {yup, you're a hand sucker!}.  I've noticed that you're drooling a lot more and wonder if it's due to teething or if you're just getting excited to see me.  I hope it's the latter...

You also make these crazy grunting noises - super cute but also sort of scary sounding.  Seems like you leave those grunts when you're trying to talk to your older sister and brother.  They seriously cannot get enough of you!

I tried putting you in your Bumbo seat today but I think it was a little too much for you.  I'm thinking that by the end of the month your neck should be stronger and the Bumbo will become Mommy's your best friend.

I'm trying to cherish all these small moments and trying not to panic that you are already four months.  That means in two months you'll be eating solids.  I almost want to cry.

We're also gearing up for October birthdays {your daddy, aunt, uncles and Gong Gong} and...Hallowe'en!  Can't wait to see what month #4 brings!

Love,
Mommy

dear baby z: 2 month milestones

Dear Baby Z,

You're almost 2 1/2 months now and I already wish we could go back in time to your "birth"day.  It seems like time is just flying by and I'm doing everything to grasp onto every moment and just cherish them.  As I look back at pictures of you in the hospital right after you were born, I still can't believe how much bigger you are now and you're only 2 months old!

At the hospital

It's also amazing how much two short months can show so many changes - your personality is coming out, you can recognize your daddy, sister, brother and my voices {and when you do you have the most beautiful smile!  I love watching you smile}, you've slept through the night for the past two nights {I hope I didn't jinx your streak}, and you are the most mellow, sweet baby - just like your brother {unless you're hungry - then it's go time}.



Your sweet smile

 You are also a fighter.  Although tiny at birth, you attempted to roll over from your back to your stomach last week and succeeded!  Look how happy you were when you realized what you could do {above}!

I'm so incredibly proud of you and you're only 2 months old.  Imagine how I'm going to be 10 years down the road.  Yup, I'll be one of those moms!

I love you Z!

Love,
Mommy