diving head-first..

...into mommyhood!  I blogged about my pregnancy with Lil J occasionally but I don't think I have ever talked about my experience in becoming an acting mommy (aka step-mom) to Miss S about four and a half years ago.  In fact, now that I think about it, I was also very young at the time!

I met my hubby almost six years ago and instantly found out that he had a child from his previous marriage.  Imagine my thoughts quickly swirling around in my head:  What do I say?  What should I do?  Am I ready to jump into a relationship knowing the possibility of being a parental figure to this child?

In all fairness, I was only 22!!  I wasn't even looking for a serious relationship.  I was still in party mode - hanging out with friends, dancing at clubs and doing normal things a early twenty-something does.  But there was something special about this guy.  He seemed very involved with his daughter and loved her more than anything in the world.  That shows a lot about a person.  So I decided to take a chance.

Almost six years later, here we are!  We have a beautiful son, Lil J, who is now almost 15 months old (wow, time flies!) and a gorgeous daughter, Miss S, who is 10 going on 16 (isn't that always the case?!).  I am scared, sometimes terrified, about the years ahead but I know I can do it because I am one half of a team that is completely dedicated to our kids.  I have to admit it is not easy and there are a lot of mixed feelings about being an acting mommy which I will comment more on in another post, but I wouldn't want anything to be different.  I love that Lil J has a sibling he can look up to and that Miss S has a sibling that she loves so much.

Can't wait to see what the years ahead will bring and to witness the bond between siblings.

- swank}mama