mommy guilt

After an amazing first year with my lil one, the day I dreaded for a year had finally come. It was back to work for mama. At first I thought 'how could I leave my baby?'. It wasn't because of who we left him with (my awesome mother-in-law is taking on the duty full-time!) or how he was going to get through the day. I just felt guilty - just full of guilt. How can a good mom leave her baby for eight hours a day? Am I still a good mom if I'm not with my baby 24/7?

The answers to those questions lay with a few of my close mom friends who have been equally supportive as they have experienced the exact same thing recently. One said: you are working for your son to provide a good life for him. He will get used to it and start showing his affection for you. Remember, he doesn't understand. Those words helped me get through yesterday when I was feeling horrible at the thought of not being with my lil man.

Now, every day after work when I'm holding him and he sees daddy, he wants nothing to do with mommy! Can you taste a little jealousy on my part?! Ahhhh, I did have a full year with him and him only wanting mommy. So I guess it's daddy's turn to feel the love. But I would be lying if I didn't say that I can't wait until lil J starts being a mamas boy again

To all you working mamas out there - you are doing a fabulous job today and every day! Keep your heads up and know that you are doing the best you can for your families.

- swankmama

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