The three of us were eating dinner this evening (minus Lil J - he had already gone to bed after not sleeping all day) and I told Miss S that I was going back to school. Awkward pause. Then she scrunches up her face and says "Isn't that like weird?". I just wanted to die. I mean, to her, I'm probably this old person that she won't be for a very long time (I'm only 27!). To an 11 year-old it must be weird that a parent is going back to school. They probably think school is only for kids. Once you have a job, you don't have to go back to school - right?!
If only that was reality! It's an exciting and scary reality for me right now. I just enrolled in an online course relating to my job which means my employer will pay for it - if I pass. Or if my hubby says: when I pass! That's a plus right? Free money to continue my education?!
But I'm already having a difficult time juggling daily tasks and to add school in the mix sounds just plain insane to me. So how exactly am I going to do it? I already have ADD at work when I'm trying to concentrate on a task. How am I going to concentrate on school with a toddler running around, screaming his head off and an 11 year-old teeny bopper going on 18? This, my friend, is the challenge of a century.
So it seems.
It's terrifying. It's refreshing. It's crazy. It's relieving. It will hopefully be effortless but I know it won't be. I'm scared. Crazy scared.
Thankfully I have a supportive husband who will hold the fort while I'm off racking my brains about contracts and legal stuff. All I have to say is that it better be interesting.
- swank|mama
You can do it! I'm so excited for you!!! And seriously though, you totally can do it. One day at a time. You will rock your class!
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