off to school i go!!

The three of us were eating dinner this evening (minus Lil J - he had already gone to bed after not sleeping all day) and I told Miss S that I was going back to school.  Awkward pause.  Then she scrunches up her face and says "Isn't that like weird?".  I just wanted to die.  I mean, to her, I'm probably this old person that she won't be for a very long time (I'm only 27!).  To an 11 year-old it must be weird that a parent is going back to school.  They probably think school is only for kids. Once you have a job, you don't have to go back to school - right?!

If only that was reality!  It's an exciting and scary reality for me right now.  I just enrolled in an online course relating to my job which means my employer will pay for it - if I pass.  Or if my hubby says: when I pass!  That's a plus right?  Free money to continue my education?!

But I'm already having a difficult time juggling daily tasks and to add school in the mix sounds just plain insane to me.  So how exactly am I going to do it?  I already have ADD at work when I'm trying to concentrate on a task.  How am I going to concentrate on school with a toddler running around, screaming his head off and an 11 year-old teeny bopper going on 18?  This, my friend, is the challenge of a century.

So it seems.

It's terrifying.  It's refreshing.  It's crazy.  It's relieving.  It will hopefully be effortless but I know it won't be.  I'm scared.  Crazy scared.

Thankfully I have a supportive husband who will hold the fort while I'm off racking my brains about contracts and legal stuff.  All I have to say is that it better be interesting.

- swank|mama

1 comment:

  1. You can do it! I'm so excited for you!!! And seriously though, you totally can do it. One day at a time. You will rock your class!